A road trip to Harrisburg, PA

It's already April, and the weather is starting to get nicer, the birds are singing, flowers are starting to bloom... and I"m in the mood to do some travelling. After what seems like such a long winter, I'm ready to get out there. Heading back to PA this weekend, exploring the area and possibly hitting up the Hersey factory. Harrisburg is a great city, they have a nice downtown area to walk around and grab some food at one of the many restaurants. Check out the National Civil War Museum, although small, it has tons of artifacts on display. The next trip will include a trip to the Gettysburg National Military Park. In July they have a re-creation of the Gettysburg battle. If I can figure out how to upload my iphone pix, I will post.

Getting Healthy and Fit

I've lost around 15 lbs to date. I feel healthy, I'm less anxious, sleep better, and have more energy. I've started running again, although not as often as I would like - we are still getting out. I'm ready to focus my attention on business ideas and making money on the side. I've been working on some ideas, but I need to sit down and flush some things out. I really wish that something comes up that I can do.. I need to be able to sustain myself if I leave my job. I would love to head to an island somewhere and open up a business - its a fantasy right now, but hopefully with some luck and perseverance, it can be a reality.

Happy new year and the start of something good

Yesterday, as I went to sleep at 3am, I decided that I needed to change my life for good because if I am going to make it, things need to be different. I need to take care of my health... my mental health and physical health have been impacted by negative life choices. Went for a walk today with the pugs, and they totally loved it. The weather is gorgeous for the 2nd of January...

Tomorrowland 2015 | Monika Kruse

US Election results

So Trump has one. Hilary Lost. But.. has this election motivated people to vote or to walk away. I'm not concerned that Trump will do everything that he says he wanted to do. Its a democracy, he doesn't have a dictatorship where he has full reign over everything. Its a sad day for #women though. America basically said it would rather have a racist male than an #woman.

Depression Wins Again

I have been feeling very down and upset with everything lately. I feel as if I can't take a day off work without being harassed for information; information which is readily available in a central area that my team should be able to access. WRONG. I don't get how people function around me. I am a fast learner, always have been, and I master any task at hand. It totally sucks when everyone around me praises someone who does nothing, or is the social butterfly of the office, and I'm made to feel like I'm not doing my job. 

Fuck off already. 

I guess I will get this reaction from anywhere. Perhaps I'm a threat to those who give only 50%, but it's the culture of the organization, cliquey, and dysfunctional. My own position is still only temporary and I feel as if they don't want me. For someone who needs positive feedback ongoing, I get nothing, and therefore my motivation is in the trash. 

Should I give a shit? No, if I could I'd tell them to go fuck themselves. This goes for the dumbasses I sit with on a board with my condo. I stepping down from that asap. 

Not sure where to go from here. Sometimes I just wish I would just die already. 

Silas