Summer Rain

I remember.... listening to Belinda Carlisle, brings me back to those summers where I sat reading in my room or writing essays, or pretending that my life was better than how I FELT. When I found myself with one individual, I trully felt that he was the one. But he broke my heart, and shortly afterwards, my life changed so much that I don't think I could ever come back. In fact, I don't think I was ever in a place of happiness. My life seems to have always been one where I am pleasing others, and my needs have always been put on the backburner. M tried to understand me but I don't think he could have truly understood. He recently came back into my life by way of social media, and I think it has impacted me in the way that one's past has come back to haunt me. He was always what I wanted and aspired to end up with, but I went down the rabbit hole and never came back. I feel the only option I have these days is to just throw the towel in and a call it a day. I'm just waiting for my puppies to go before me.. D is not for me. I hate him. He killed my spirit more than he will ever know.

Yahoo! Answers... what a crock of s&^$*!

" Excuse me, but why does your website 'claim to be taking a break' when someone has a asked a question and may be getting a response, and then only to find that - the real reason is that perhaps the person may be deleting the question? I was midway through an answer, when I rec'd this taking a break, and went back in my history only to have the question disappear - don't allow people to retrack questions period. this website if full of stupid questions, its really just another social network - I mean how many people ask questions about personal health details that would indicate some illegal activities happening with this person - its all not right at all."

This was a comment I sent to them about some message I received while trying to respond to one of the many useless questions these morons ask on this website. I can't believe it appears on google, its all nonsense, and I am concerned by some of the questions be posed by these 'young' people. Questions about pregnancy, rape, stealing, diseases, you name it.. it's there. I don't know what Yahoo! is playing at, but this type of forum can be damaging to some who may come across this as a result of a google websearch.

whatever happened to integrity

Over the past year, I have spent (as a part of my job) reconcilling claims and reviewing project files. These files are then sent to another office where they are reviewed and sent for payment. I feel I have done a fairly accurate job and expect the same of the office receiving them. Obviously this is not the case. What I did encounter was a person who spent more time on MSN, Facebook and MySpace during work hours and did a half ass job. Its unfortunate too, I really liked them and respected them. As this person has now left the department, left to go shack up with someone outside the city, good for them, I was pleased they were following their heart. There is a new person who has been filing in and trying to make sense of ALL the work that was not completed or was totally wrong. The expenditures made by that person, is enough to make me sick. The wastefulness of money that could have went elsewhere to benefit the hungry - instead was used to buy things I can't mention here (but online social sites on a co. credit card should give you an idea of what other crap was purchased), and it goes on. I don't understand how this person can live with themself for what they have done.They are now claiming to be a motivational speaker and life coach. Kudo's to them, but I don't think they should be allowed to look after any financial matters - as they definitely lack the integrity. Aside from that I admire there courage, it is truely remarkable. I just don't admire their work ethics and these poor decisions has ultimately cost this department a lot of money.