Fall has arrived!

The weather has become much cooler in the past few weeks and leaves are changing colours. The picturesque landscape is beautiful and I'm looking forward to taking it all in. I am not in the best of places but I'm still here. I was in a groove a few weeks back - started using the ASICS app again, put in 2- 3 workouts/runs a week and was beginning to feel good. Yes, that will be followed by the sound of a 'but' unfortunately. I don't know why or what causes me to go off track, to throw in the towel so soon. I don't know if its work, relationships, feeling hopeless about the future - there are too many things swirling around in my head. Thanksgiving came and went and I can't say that I was thankful for anything, I sometimes feel as if what is my purpose, why do I continue down this road of doom and gloom. I can't get 'happy' really happy - the kind where "you feel it deep inside, and you know this by the big smile as if to say, if this were the last day of your life, it was all worth it" - that is the kind of happy I keep chasing but never finding.

California Dreamin' on such a winter's day

Well, it hasn't really been fall weather yet - after what seemed like the worst summer in my mind, we finally have the 30C weather I have been waiting for since last spring. Life appears to be getting better, more stressful, but I have the confidence to make decisions, do what I want and not care what about anyone else but me. Since February, I've lost 54lbs and down clothing sizes that I can actually wear things I never thought I would get into. D tried the diet but gave up after 2 months, and I'm sure has put back the weight he lost. I'm disappointment in him and that he doesn't try. I know what that's like and I think I waste to much energy getting him to do things. We are not going to last and I've already emotionally given up on this relationship. Once I sell up, I will pay him what I owe and move on without him. We don't have a relationship, we just occupy the same space. I need to start making plans and do things to get this place ready to sell. Save money and buy that place in the sun once I start my business.

Getting Healthy and Fit

I've lost around 15 lbs to date. I feel healthy, I'm less anxious, sleep better, and have more energy. I've started running again, although not as often as I would like - we are still getting out. I'm ready to focus my attention on business ideas and making money on the side. I've been working on some ideas, but I need to sit down and flush some things out. I really wish that something comes up that I can do.. I need to be able to sustain myself if I leave my job. I would love to head to an island somewhere and open up a business - its a fantasy right now, but hopefully with some luck and perseverance, it can be a reality.

My Running

I started tracking my running back in NYC in July 2012 and feel I've come so far since that first 15 min run ( see photo from the app Runkeeper)

Since then I've done two 5k, 4 Half Marathons, and about ready to prepare for a full marathon in October. I've signed up for the RBC run for the kids in September as part of the training plan. My most recent visit to NYC I did manage to run the entire park, very good feeling! 

If I can do it, anyone can! Get out there and run! 

It's already June!

The year is almost half way through, and I could say that its been a pretty lousy one so far, but I won't. I completed my half marathon in 2:29:00, which wasn't my expected time, but I finished feeling really good and in no pain. Plugging away with school work and the practicum which should be taking up all of my time - but I'm not focused enough. I have three months to do the paper. I need to get cracking.

Happy 2013 ~ this is my year!

Happy New Year!

I am happy that it is 2013! I am well on my way to this being my year for successes. I just need to stay focused and get rid of the distractions that will pull me down. Did my resolution run on New Years Eve, in 31 mins, which is really good. Now I start training for the Good Life Half Marathon in April. I plan on doing a few 5 and 10K's this year, with the other half marathon in September. I'm not ready for anything more. Still working on my fitness levels and losing a few more pounds. Less travel this year because that is what kills me  - no proper fitness and nutrition plans in place. No more excuses!

Fitness and Healthy Eating

Since Mid-April, I've been exercising and eating healthy all in the pursuit of losing weight and getting healthy. Since April, I've lost about 26 lbs, and maybe about 13% body fat. I now run and hit the gym daily. I recently participated in the Scotiabank's Toronto Waterfront Marathon, well the 5K run. It rainned for the whole run, which really sucked, because by the time I hit the finish line (31mins, chip; 39 official) I was drenched and cold. I picked my medal up and headed to my car to warm up and dry off. Needless to say, I felt I could have ran further, so I signed up for a half marathon at the Downsview Air Force Base, on November 11/12. I am looking forward to the long haul and I am hoping that it isn't snowing or raining because that would just suck for me.

2012, so far....

Well, the second part of the year is underway. January to July went by super quick and I've accomplished much during that period. Upon returning back from a gluttonous Mexico trip, I needed to focus on getting health and in shape. I do not want to have the same issues as many of my friends and family ~ so I committed to getting in shape. Unfortunately, it wasn't until mid April that I started to really make a change and see the results! I was beginning to enjoy hitting the gym, eating healthy and no processed foods. Working with coworkers and a fitness expert, I managed to drop 10 lbs like that, *snap*. Since April, I've managed to drop back down to the weight I was when I started to lose control of things, about 4 years ago. I'm better off as I have a clearer idea of where I want to be, who I want to be around and I'm cutting out those people who have never given me the time of day. I really don't want to be a number on someone's friend list. I recently did a purge on Facebook and I guess I offended someone, I'm like whatever, I don't need your drama. I'm on a roll, I'm at the gym everyday, started running and I love it! I can't be around people who live unhealthy lifestyles, because I view it like an alcoholic ~ if you must eat what you eat, I don't want to be around you because I'm very vulnerable and do not want the temptation. I prefer to be around those who share a similar view.