I'm burnTout.

For the past few months, I have been waking up my regular time, feeling tired and not at all full of energy. I drag myself down the hall and lift up my work laptop. Another day of the same ol', same ol' crap. I spend my days working just at a minimum (occasionally I do need to step it up and work straight through without getting outside, but mainly, I haven't been motivated to much. I don't even feel happy about anything, I spend my days obsessing with death!!! What the hell is wrong with me.. I feel as if I'm falling into dark pit that is covered with wet mud.. I can't get out of this. I finally called my doctor the other day and she gave me Wellbutrin 300mg. I hope it helps. Not sure it will help with my sleeping. I want to sleep a whole night without waking up!! I haven't done this in so long.. I can't even remember the last time I went to sleep at 10pm, waking up at 6am. without waking in the night. I don't know what to do. I have started watching California Preachin' on YouTube. This is Chynna Phllips-Baldwin channel and its the best thing I've watched in such a long time. I wish I had found this last year at the beginning of the pandemic, I think it might have helped me for a bit. But I struggle with feeling so alone and liking it that way. I'm angry. I sad. I'm fat. I hate food. I need to move now. 

Link to YouTube page: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UChv4fOIikMs3QbHWIuIZeDQ

California Preachin website - get some march!! I ordered some shirts and the zip jacket, I can't wait to get it

email stuff

From google list that I belong to: (not sure how accurate this information is, esp around the bar code info.)

Very good info! I'm not buying anything else Made in China. We had 2 foreign exchange students from China living with us & they always checked bar codes. They would put some things down and say 'no good - not same as in China' When we asked them about that later, they said China sends the inferior things to the U.S.A., for what its worth. Bar Codes Identify Country of Origin - Be Sure to Check Them. The whole world is scared of China-made 'black hearted goods'. Can you differentiate which one is made in the USA , Philippines , Taiwan or China ?

For example, the first 3 digits of the bar code reflect the country code where the product was made. All bar codes that start with 690, 691, 692, thru 695 are MADE IN CHINA.

Bar code items starting with 471 are Made in Taiwan like this one.

Chinese businessmen know that American consumers don't prefer products 'Made in China ', so they don't show from which country it originates any longer.

However, you may now refer to the barcode. Remember if the first 3 digits are in the range 690-695, then it is Made in China .

00 ~ 13 USA & CANADA

30 ~ 37 FRANCE
40 ~ 44 GERMANY
49 ~ JAPAN
50 ~ UK
57 ~ Denmark
64 ~ Finland
76 ~ Switzerland & Liechtenstein
471 ~ Taiwan
480 ~ Philippines
628 ~ Saudi Arabia
629 ~ UAE (United Arab Emirates)
740-745 ~ Central America

Please inform your family and friends. It is our human right to know, but its not the government's job to educate the public, just to rake in the taxes. Therefore, we have to protect ourselves & make everyone aware.



Just an FYI........
I wanted to give everyone a heads up that if you tend to give gift cards around the holidays, you need to be careful that the cards will be honored after the holidays. Stores that are planning to close after Chris tmas are still selling the cards through the holidays even though the cards will be worthless Jan uary 1. There is no law preventing them from doing this. On the contrary, it is referred to as 'Bankrupcy Planning). Below is a partial list of stores that you need to be cautious about.
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> Circuit City filed Chapter 11
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> Ann Taylor 117 stores nationwide closing
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> Lane Bryant, Fashion Bug ,and Catherine's to close 150 stores nationwide
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> Eddie Bauer to close stores 27 stores and more after January
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> Cache will close all stores
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> Talbots closing down specialty stores
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> J. Jill closing all stores (owned by Talbots)
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> Pacific Sunwear closing all stores (also owned by Talbots)
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> GAP closing 85 stores
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> Footlocker closing 140 stores more to close after January
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> Wickes Furniture closing down
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> Levitz closing down remaining stores
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> Bombay closing remaining stores
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> Zales closing down 82 stores and 105 after January
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> Whitehall closing all stores
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> Piercing Pagoda closing all stores
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> Disney closing 98 stores and will close more after January.
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> Ho me Depot closing 15 stores 1 in NJ ( New Brunswick )
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> Macys to close 9 stores after January
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> Linens and Things closing all stores
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> Movie Galley closing all stores
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> Pep Boys closing 33 stores
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> Sprint/Nextel closing 133 stores
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> JC Penney closing a number of stores after January
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> Ethan Allen closing down 12 stores.
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> Wilson Leather closing down all stores
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> Sharper Image closing down all stores
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> K B Toys closing 356 stores
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> Lowes to close down so me stores
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> Dillard's to close so me stores

Big Brother is watching ...

I've just returned from a short - 1 week - visit to London. Overall, I don't rate it high on my list of top places I've been to. It was too chaotic, too many tourists, too expensive (lacking quality) and found it lacked any class or culture. I felt as if I just visited a trailor park for a week. Anyhow, a few things I did notice - the presence of CCTV camera's set up everywhere you went. Walking down the street, in stores, in transit (buses, trains, walkways) - I think the only place not touched were the toilets (one would hope). My work place recently installed some security camera's and every time I walk by one - I can't help but notice it. I am always looking up at it - knowing full well that no one is looking at us - its main purpose is for after hours activity when no one is in the building. I know this but yet, I still get nervous and suspicious of those cameras' and who might be watching. What a terrible thing to live in London with all those camera's watching everyone all the time - in the buses, everyone heads for the top level and the first thing one see's is a camera staring right at you. What is it about camera's that make me feel as if I am a criminal? I am not doing anything wrong but in a foreign country - who knows what people will do with those images. This is probably why I feel as if Britain and America are both in the same boat when it comes to security- and this is probably why I didn't like Britain as much as I thought I would. Some have an arrogance about them that is very similar to American's. When I see how they operate, it's no wonder they have amassed huge museums worth of goods stolen by its conquered countries. It's disgusting - perhaps, I thought too much about this fact. I refused to go into any of the 'free entry' museums because they only charge you to see any exhibits on loan by another institution. Oh I don't know what I am talking about - I'm just rambling again.

the problem of shopping online

I was one of many people who sat by their computers on Christmas eve - 8pm - hoping to get in on Future Shop's Boxing Day sale. Among the items up for grabs and one that EVERYONE was talking about was the HD DVD player for $99. I was looking for a HTIB to go with the new LCD tv I purchased - so I had my eyes on either the Pioneer or Sony system. I didn't want to spend too much either.

Anyhow... 8pm arrives, and after searching the site (using previously bookmarked items that were on sale) - got to check out - and.... waiting, waiting, ...tick tock tick tock... and then from out of the blue - I was booted off the site. Too busy to access. I was p/o'ed. I wasn't the only one (judging by the comments in both Future Shops boards and RedFlagDeals forums). It was a complete f/up on Future Shop's side.

Needless to say, I did manage to get the system - and it would be sent to me via Purolator. I expected to wait a week for the deliver, but surprisingly, it arrived yesterday - in a HUGE box! Holy, it was taller than me! Hey, if I ever loose the roof over my head, I could use this box as a makeshift home :-)

I started to unpack the thing - and after wiring everything up, looked at all the connections and wires, I thought, holy shit, I can't figure this out. I get no sound - I have all kinds of connections and wires but haven't a clue how to hook the thing up. Why the hell do they make these things so hard? I have the television, the HD digital box, the HD DVD player and the receiver thingy. Making them all work properly was something else. Even the tv - trying to figure out the settings is too confusing, the picture size is never the same - prompting me to change from stretch, zoom, normal and different inputs and holy crap, I am getting fed up with it all.

As I sat last evening thinking about it all, when it comes down to the bottom line, I really don't care about resolution, size, sound - so I packed that stupid thing up and am sending it back. The HD box is going back as well - even though they shipped it out to me - and I made a big deal about having to spend a day dragging the old box to Rogers Video - and their bloody system were down by the time I arrived there. Anyhow, this whole experience has left a bad taste in my mouth. I am beginning to think I should have just been content with my old tv and regular cable.

Christmas is coming...

Another month and we will be full swing into the madness of christmas shopping. I normally wait until the very last minute to consider any gifts and by then, I usually buy a couple of inexpensive gifts with a card and some cash. I know, I should be more familiar with what ma famille likes, but I just can't put up with the stress of looking for gifts for people who are related to me by blood - I know nothing about what they really like. Really sad, I am trying to reach out and get to know at least my neice and nephew.