Goodbye Summer

 I can't believe the summer is over again. I'm feeling so distance from everyone and not caring about anyone. I miss my babies Cosette and Silas and wish that I would just join them. 

Summertime Summertime...

 Well, mid way through summer, another birthday has passed. Didn't do my xmas in July and didn't do anything special. I hate my life. I hate my job. I hate the people I work with except for a small few... when will things change for the better. I am hoping to move away, but with the dogs, lack of work, I"m pretty much stuck having to work full time for now. D is going to be 67 this year and can retire. He's actively looking at places and I can't move. I need my job.. something that is so selfish of him to think we can move anywhere.. fuck my life. 

Quit quit quit

 gawd I should be happy with where I'm at in my life.. but I'm just spiriling out of control and just wish I would land facedown in a ditch somewhere. 

Happy New Year 2024

 Another year, what can I say. I'm listening to my 80s music and 90s dance stuff. what the heck. I miss my youth. I had a life when I was 18-19, and the years beyond. I wish I would die now.