New Journey

I've spent the past few months dealing (well not dealing but coping badly) with loss during the past 1.5 years of both pugs and my friend. I feel sad about it and I'm trying to move on and live my life the way I want to. I'm tired of feeling regret about not taking risks early on in my life, such as moving to Germany. I don't want to feel as if I missed out so this year I've started to take care of me - I ended 2020 by participating in a freedom from alcohol 30 day session with a woman I found on IG. I feel as if that - coupled with the ending of my other med and adding a new med have been so helpful in my journey of being substance free. The alcohol situation was so out of hand this past year and this put about 25 or 30lbs on and now I'm struggling to take it off. It's very depressing but at least my desire to drink isn't as bad - in fact, I can't stand the taste anymore. Even when I do try and have a glass of wine - by the 2nd glass, I can't even finish it and I"m trying to force myself to drink it. I think that's a start and I feel that its the right move and I can't wait to continue this journey of learning and growing into the person I am meant to be.